It’s exhausting worrying about everything…You see sometimes something happens and that’s it your mind goes into overdrive.. You think all sorts… the most horrible things cross my mind.

More tiring still is controlling those feelings, cause I know that it’s my experience of waking up to my son having passed away, that have made me think like this. Acceptance of my thoughts is key to learning to live again. 💙💔

Change was something that scared me after I lost the little man. I didn’t like it, and didn’t adapt well. I think it was probably due too the huge changes I had faced after he passed away.Over the years, I have hated, resented, avoided, embraced, loved change….With change comes experience, new people, love, happiness, opportunity and so much more, not all good sometimes, but not all bad either.Change shows your living, your adapting and changing just like the seasons… ❤️💙💔

https://lifeafterchildloss.blog/2019/01/02/someone-knows-you-from-somewhere/

As I sat tonight having my hair dried by my girl…. The conversation flowing I realised my girl had become a young lady. My boy has become a young man, me I’m a little older and stronger….

I chose to push through the darkness and now I see light. They make me so proud, every day…. I only hope one day that they will be proud of me as their mum who battled through grief 💔💙

As I sit in here enjoying a lazy Sunday, I worry about all the things that still need doing in the house.

We have made huge changes to our home over the last year, but downstairs is untouched, and desperately needs doing.

But right now to be honest, I would rather concentrate on doing little things, and spending time with my family.

We will be stuck indoors all winter, the house will wait till then….. 🏡❤️💔💙

I hear you, but truth is, there are times when I’m kind to myself but it gives, me too much time to think.We all know there are times when you have to keep busy, and times when you really need a break….Do what feels right only you know what’s best for you 💙💔

You can easily over burden your mind thinking how will life be after you have experienced grief….

Instead think what will today bring, if a full day is too much take it by the hour….

The mallet steps, can make a huge difference…. Even the takes buildings were made step by step… Be kind to yourself 💙💔

It may be the birthday, anniversary, day of the funeral, flowering Sunday, mother’s day, fathers day, christmas… and so much more.

These days bring on their own dilemmas, what can you buy for the grave yard. Whatever you buy will be fitting, heartfelt and perfect.

You will choose certain flowers for a reason. The gifts will be just right.

Why not still give mothers day cards, fathers day cards for you will always still be mum and dad, just special kind of parents, warrior parents. Parents with a daily battle learning to live through grief 💪💞💐💙💔

Everyone we meet have been touched at some point in their life by grief, each and every story very different.

Some of us know our children are unwell, or even have a diagnosis. But nothing on this earth can prepare you for loosing your own child.

It just isn’t meant to be this way… Some are just too precious for this earth or are needed somewhere else.

I just wish I could have kept you forever, well I did in my heart and mind you remain my boy endless love and grief 💙💔

Love the grown up conversations I have with my girl (14)….

The simplest of conversations, but mean so much to me.

All conversations show me how well we have both done, and how far we have come…..living through grief.

Proud, cherished and treasured 💙💔