Relationship can be hard for someone who has faced a trauma, such as child loss.
Mainly due to the protective cover you place around yourself, as you just can’t face any more hurt. But also due to the fact that you know nothing else could be as bad as that experience.
I live my life trying to be the best I can be, and will do anything to make my family happy. I will give without thought, help where need and support anyone who needs it.
Over the last month I have faced a relationship breakdown, it’s been a hard time, but it won’t break me, after all nothing can be as bad as what I have already faced.
But I refuse not to open my heart again, I, just like every other person in the world deserve happiness. There’s nothing harder than being vulnerable and allowing yourself to be available, but without that you will never find real love.
Don’t place your life on hold, life is far to short, bugger judgement. Be you, be bold and be beautiful. Those who gossip about you, are not your true friends. There will never be a right time so don’t be waiting for it.
Back in 2000 when my life fell apart in an instant, I couldn’t see a future, or happiness going forward.
I battled daily with the pain of having to continue life without my boy. Things like this just aren’t meant to happen no parent should ever have to lose a child
2020 and lockdown has had an affect on me, its at times tested my strength and on occasion its take me to a dark place.
Now in 3rd year of university with only a couple of months left, and the world slowly getting back to normal, there is a little light at the end of the tunnel.
I don’t know what the future holds for us, but I am so lucky to have my little family. I’m not sure what the future holds, but I must face it head on.
To whoever may be struggling right now, don’t give up, talk, discuss take a breath and trust in yourself. Words can mean nothing when your hearing them, but trust that everyone that talks to you are trying to support you and help you 💙💔
I read the above today and how someone has taken this as their go to saying.
Mine has always been, ‘I am made of strong stuff’ or ‘having been through what I have, iit honestly can’t get any worse’.
But I like the positivity of the above quote, it’s a sign of inner strength. Although often I feel that I am very weak and fragile, all that I have been through has made me be more resilient, more aware but most of all stronger than I thought I could ever be.
Embrace who you are
Do you have something you say to yourself when things get tough?
There are days when I think I use every possible emotion.
It really is the little things, the little arms around your neck and the almost words ‘I love you’. The older children and their kind caring ways.
Yes I know seems too perfect, and at times it is. We have flying hormones and moments where everything is just too much. I will sob for moment and wonder why everything goes wrong.
But I am mum and I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t, so I grit my teeth pull myself together and carry on.
Then I end the day watching instant family. Well I cried and laughed, I never thought I would be in the same situation (well almost the same) but I love my kids 2 teenagers, one toddler whom I am guardian to and my angel boy in heaven.