I have never kept anything from my children, they know they had a big brother.
They have recognised when I’m unhappy, worried, unsure and so much more. This doesn’t mean I’m a bad parent, I know we are there to protect our children, but should we hide emotions from them too.
For me never hide, emotions are every human beings way of dealing with worries, stresses and grief. My children are in tune with their emotions and can express themselves. I couldn’t be prouder of who they are today.
I spent many a sleepless night worrying of how my hard times would have affected the children, and it will always worry me, but reality is that there was no need to worry.
As I continued on my journey through grief, and despite my own issues, I always no matter what did the best for my children, and it shows.
Be proud of yourself and your journey and digest the positives others say about you❤️💙💔
I can’t stress to you the importance of acceptance. You can’t greive until you accept, you can’t process without accepting, you can’t begin without acceptance of a closure.
No matter what your going through, whether it be a loss, significant change in your life, anything really….. The key to new beginnings and the journey to continuing in your life that has changed considerably is acceptance.
I accept that we lost our boy…. Doesn’t mean I got over it, as I never will, but I accept it.
I accept that I will never be the person I was before I lost him, but I will embrace the new slightly broken me.
I will accept that I feel deeper, worry more and lack confidence, I haven’t had a lifetime to get to know myself but rather 20 years is what I’ve had, and 4-5 of those I would rather forget, but a lot of it I can’t remember.
I accept that I suffered with depression for years, acceptance means I can also accept that I’m now in a much better place💙💔
Today I was invited to speak on radio Wales, to express my opinion on the proposed changes. A week or two just isn’t enough is it really…. or is it? Truth is everyone grieves differently, there is no time limit, you do what you can do as you feel appropriate… Don’t let any written rule, push you to do what you think you must, only you know when your ready……
Stronger than strong is where I have to be in my life right now. Its not easy but I know that in time my strength will make a difference to others.
I take pride in helping other people, as when you have experienced grief, heartache and pain, you always want to help others. You know what it’s like to hurt, and you don’t wish to see anyone else hurting.
Be kind to others, but don’t forget yourself in the process. Be true to yourself and be the best person you can be❤️💙💔
Exams have been this week, and I ain’t going lie it was a struggle…
I’ve been struggling since Christmas really, you see there is this thing…. Expectation…..
I hate expectations, I hate what it does, I should just be OK now right? … I know its been nearly 20 years since you grew your wings…. But you should be here with me. I want to see you grow, learn, achieve, love, have your own family…..
Instead I wonder……. Because that’s all I can do. I’m stronger now than I’ve ever been, but still it’s a battle….. I am your mum, and I will live the best life I can for you. 💔💙