Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

I guess the past does pull me a lot as I never want to go forward without you.

But I have learnt also that acceptance of both your loss and the new imperfect me was key to the future.

I strive to be the best I can be, I chose life when times were hard, I’m glad I did. I have achieved and continue to achieve in this thing called life.  I am so proud of all that I am, my family and mostly proud to be a mum to you Owain , a tiny baby angel I never met and Gwion, Beca and Tyler 💔💗

What is life without looking to the future, keep moving forward but not forgetting who we are and where we have been. I wear my tiger stripes with pride 🐯

What is one thing you would change about yourself?

The one thing about myself that I would change is the way I think. Believe me it isn’t how I want to think, and its not like I haven’t tried to change it…..

Imagine going about your daily life just like everyone else, but you over notice or over analyse everything.

You see someone struggle you want to help…

You see someone fall… Omg they are going to die?

You see someone sleeping…. Omg are they breathing?

You get angry when you feel people are not listening too your concerns, or you think they aren’t putting enough thought into their actions….

You see for them it’s an easy thing to put themselves first, to go and do what they want without a thought. For me…. Its can I, what if, how, no I can’t,. Might need to do something else, can’t be selfish people need me…..

Im exhausted from thinking, I’m exhausted living this daily battle with my mind rationalising every single thought, feeling, action.

Am I normal, God damn it yes I am!

Am I crazy? No I’m not, because I know why I do what I do, and know how to talk myself out of the overthinking.

What is crazy is the perception of those who just don’t understand, and lucky for them they never will 🤔