It’s true to say people do think your vulnerable… When you have experienced loss, hardship, pain….. Don’t allow yourself to be taken for granted or used…
I mistook people who were harmful to me for friends or people who genuinely cared when I was at my lowest…
Have courage to step back, evaluate and don’t feel pressured….. for in grief your perception can be altered by the fact that you want to be loved and cared for and just want to feel someone is there for you.. ๐๐
So today I have felt a whirlwind of emotions….
Laughter (mum telling me I made page 3๐)
Cried (a simple hug from my next door neighbour no words needed)
Love (cuddles from the kids… Never enough cuddles to be had savour each one)
Tearful (just everything getting too much… Sensitive to everyone’s feelings as well as my own)
So after a roast dinner for tea and a nice walk…. I’m going to relax and put my feet up and watch, ‘a star is born’ ๐๐
So I know I have done my blog for today….. But I also want to share with you all what I’ve been up to today….
My son who is 14 was competing today in a basketball tournament… He and his team did amazing and won, and I am so proud…
But I must tell you being surrounded by other parents is refreshing… I though it was only me that worried about them getting injured…. But guess what it wasn’t just me…. A mother’s instinct and reassurance it’s normal ๐๐
So looking at the support and messages from other grieving parents following my press coverage this weekend….
A couple of things I want to reiterate……
Thankyou all for your support.
So as I write my blog this evening, I’m not going to lie…. Its been a overwhelming day…
Im overwhelmed by the support to my blog with the media attention…. But also saddened at the amount of us who have had to experience such loss.
It comes back to the question why us?
We will never know the answer but what today has taught me is that we are certainly not alone…. Stay strong and thankyou ๐๐
And then you hear them shout back….. what!!!!!!!!(angrily)
I witnessed this twice today on our lovely day out in the zoo…..
These children wanted to share their excitement with their parents…. But they were busy on their phones…..
Put your phone down whatever it is it can wait….
We who have angel babies would love to hear that…… ๐๐
As you find yourself grieving and your not the person you once were… Your broken…. Your tired… You just don’t know what to do….
You start to feel unnoticed…. You feel like nobody cares…..
Stop…. Hold your head up high, go out, start noticing….. Cause people do notice you…. Take time to chat if someone says hi….. If someone opens a door for you…. Lift your head look into their eyes, thank them … They did notice you… They may feel the same way…
It really is the little things that build you up….. give you strength… allow yourself to feel noticed again. ๐๐
When I have a conversation with someone new and they ask…. Do you have kids?…..
Don’t be afraid to say yes because if they are now an angel child they are still your child….
I always say……
Yes I have had 3 but now I have 2….. This isn’t for sympathy… But rather for understanding and just because my baby gained wings doesn’t mean he ain’t mine ๐๐
So I recently viewed a video of an accident on a motorway where the person recording had sat back and recorded and posted on facebook…
I instantly felt for the poor families involved….. and anger towards the driver for recording instead of helping… and commented.
This was followed by a stream of angry comments towards my thoughts…. Why should he put himself at risk, the video would help the investigators… Etc….
I can’t help how I feel, I would want to help… I know what grief feels like I stated…..
Whilst our experiences have made us sensitised to grief and pain….. We must make sure we are aware of the risks involved in all situations… Pause for thought ๐๐
Bywyd, wedi colli plentyn/Life after losing a child 