Even though he passed away we spoke to him at the grave side as a baby, as a toddler, as a child as a teenager and as a young adult.

The conversations by the grave side matured with time, the gifts changed, the birthdays have been marked…

He even got a flashing light badge (which I would have made him wear) for his 18th birthday….

One thing for sure loved over many years….and living every year in our hearts… 💙💔

I had a few what I call null and void years after losing my little man….

These were years where I just existed.. And all my effort was used just exist….

It was like I was in a daze… Don’t remember much only snippets of continuation…

But the point is I survived, continued a succeeded…. Nothing major to report there, but I tell, you those years are my greatest achievement….. 💙💔

Push yourself out of your comfort zone… Do the things you don’t really feel like doing. I’m not a really outgoing person and hate social events…. But I push myself every time…i had a really good evening… Thankyou to all my followers I consider you all my extended family 💙💔

I learnt this the hard way….Now I….. Love with all my heart… Laugh hard…. Never hold grudges… Be nice to everyone……Distance myself from negativity…I feel everything, deeper than ever before… 💙💔

Hi sorry I missed you guys yesterday… Was a very busy day…

Im hoping you all have a lovely weekend and some relaxation time…

That’s exactly what I need this weekend… So gonna make time for me have fun!!

My tips to you are:

• Don’t listen to what others think
• Do what feels right
• Cry when you need to
• Go out when you feel ready
• If you want time alone, have it
• Never underestimate your strength
• Notice those that are supporting you
• Take the love and support they are giving you
• Read your cards
• Cuddle an item that makes you feel close to the person you’ve lost
• Take plenty of rest… Tiredness can lower mood

• 💙💔

You think that from now everyone will think negatively of you, you have battled low moods and depression….

Truth is they view you in such a different light….. They see strength, they see a person in touch with theur emotion, they see your stripes… You earned them, they made you who you are…

What you experienced doesn’t affect what others think of you…. Stay strong and hold your head up high… Your a survivor 💙💔

You hear people moan about this and that, they tell you about whats worrying them….

You can become bitter, ‘if that’s all you’ve got to worry about your doing well…..’ How dare you moan when people like me battle every day just to survive.

Truth is they don’t know what you’ve suffered, nor will they ever understand how deep it hurts and how you will never be complete again.

Their troubles are just as real, as to them what they are going through, is or maybe the worst thing they have experienced….. Be sympathetic 💙💔

One of the most difficult questions that was asked of me only days after we lost our son was….

Do you want a grave for 3 opening so you can join him when the time comes?

It was so overwhelming…. Never did I think I would be arranging a funeral nevermind arranging my future place of burial.

I was 21, how on earth was I to decide… We chose a grave for 3…. 💙💔

As mothers say draws to an end… I can say it was a lovely day.

There were voids the one missing name on the card, the extra child you’d like sitting by the table….

But everyone I spent time with today mean the world to me…. Keep your family close, tell them you love them… Hug them tight. 💓💙💔