Hitio botwm crisis…..

Yn ddiweddar mi es i, i le tywyll iawn, doedd dim penodol, ond bob dim di dod yn ormod.

Sylwais reit sydyn bod angen help arnai. On be oedd yr help oni isho, dwim yn siwr.

Buan iawn sylwais er mod  i angen help, doedd gen i ddim yr amser i rhoid i neb oedd yn trio fy helpua!

Teimlais fwy o bwysa yn sydyn ofnadwy, roedd pawb isho tamaid ohonaf fel petau.

Yna cofiais y pwysigrwydd o dderbyn, derbyn sefyllfa, argaeledd, yr cymorth oedd ar gael a mwy.

Cofiais hefyd nid oedd rhaid i fi wneud bob dim ar unwaith. Felly eisteddais yn ol gwneud rhestr o bob dim oedd yn cael ei gynnig.

Derbyniais nad oedd posib i bob dim ddigwydd ar unwaith, es ati i feddwl be oedd yn bosib efo’r amser oedd genai.

A dyma ddechrau ar siwrne arall i ddod yn well unwaith eto.

Diolch i bawb sydd yn fy nghefnogi🥰

Top three peeves

Name your top three pet peeves.

I had a giggle when I read this prompt…..then I immediately thought gosh how does a menopausal woman decide on just three 😂😂

Here it goes….

  1. Insensitive people
  2. Rudeness….the simple please and thanks…. Costs nothing
  3. People using phones whilst driving…. Life is far too precious for needless accidents, the texts and calls can wait.

The Elephant

What are your favorite animals?

The Elephant has always been my favourite animal, ever since I was small I was intrigued be the sheer magnitude of them.

They stood tall and firm, but appeared quiet and layed back. Their skin tells a story, pretty much like mine.

Though I do refer to my markings being tiger stripes! But what I do know….. just like the elephant I have earned all my battle scars and markings. Each one tells a story.

Always the beach

Beach or mountains? Which do you prefer? Why?

There is something about looking into the distance, not knowing what’s at the end….. Pretty much like life really, it’s probably best we don’t know what’s ahead sometimes. The beach is where i feel at one with nature, the shapes, colours, sounds are all encompassing 🥰

Bywyd reit rhyfadd!

Tydi bywyd yn peth rhyfadd. Dwin teimlo mod i mewn ras, ond ras i ble?

Dros y blynyddoedd dwi di dysgu be sydd yn fy ngwneud yn hapus, petha reit syml rili. Teulu, adra a gwaith.

Ia gwaith! Pam …glywai chi’n deud. Wel ma gwithio yn rhoi sialens i fi, tynnu fy meddwl, cadw fi yn brysur….sydd union be dwi angen i gadw oddi wrth yr hunllefa sydd yn fy meddwl withia, ond hefyd yn nadu i mi or feddwl.

Hefyd ma gwaith yn rhan ohonai cyn dy golli di. Dwi di bod yn weithgar erioed a doedd dim yn gallu fy stopio.  Dwi meddwl bod cael gwithio fel dwi di neud erioed a wan yn ol yn y maes arlwyo yn gadael rhan bach ohonai fod y Delyth dwi di bod erioed

Dwi ddim wedi medru mynd yn ol i’r Delyth oeddwn i cyn dy golli, fydd hyny byth yn bosib,  oherwydd y diwrnod yna gollais fy hun hefyd. Ond mae bod yn gwaith, yn ganol pobol, yn gwneud fy ngora yn rhoi teimlad cynnes i mi.

Ond dal tu ol i’r clawr ma na lyfr enfawr sydd heb ei ddarllen ❤️💔

Grandma!

So this week has been a really tough one. Tough because of once again feeling helpless in situations that I can’t resolve and are out of my control.

I was also asked for the first time ever , if I was a Grandma!

It alerted me again to my age and the next chapter of life. It also alerted me to the fact that I have possibly centuries  again of worrying about the tragic thing that happened to me happening to one of my children and their babies.

Again some things are just out of your control……..

Past Vs Future

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

I guess the past does pull me a lot as I never want to go forward without you.

But I have learnt also that acceptance of both your loss and the new imperfect me was key to the future.

I strive to be the best I can be, I chose life when times were hard, I’m glad I did. I have achieved and continue to achieve in this thing called life.  I am so proud of all that I am, my family and mostly proud to be a mum to you Owain , a tiny baby angel I never met and Gwion, Beca and Tyler 💔💗

What is life without looking to the future, keep moving forward but not forgetting who we are and where we have been. I wear my tiger stripes with pride 🐯

Dymuniad

Doeddwn byth yn un am ofyn na dymuno. Doeddwn ddim yn coelio mewn ffashiwn beth. Ond yn y 24 mlynedd diwethaf dwin neud dim byd ond gofyn a dymuno am un peth na chai byth.

Heddiw, dwi di bod i neud dy fedd yn ddel, rhosod neis a ogla hyfryd. Rhoish i gusan i dy gareg.

Fory mi wnai fwynhau y Nadolig, ond fydd yr hen deimlad na yna eto, y teimlad bod wbath at goll.

A mi wnai unwaith eto gofyn a dymuno am chdi.

Nadolig Llawen fy mabi gwyn i💙

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