They are going away….

Tomorrow my two teenagers are going away with their dad for the week.

Omg…. I hate being without them, I worry myself sick if I don’t hear from them…..

I will no matter what think the worst, but I know their dad will look after them and they will have a great time.

So I will just have to keep myself occupied and look forward yo the stories and hugs on their return.

#grievingparentsalwaysworryπŸ’™πŸ’”

Life’s too short…

If someone has treated you badly, don’t hold a grudge…It can only hurt you if you let it…. I have let so much hurt touch me when I was weak and lonely. Why??? Because I let it☹️You need to do one of two things, let the person know they hurt… As they may not know… Not yo shout or be bitter but rather to make them aware. Secondly you need to park it up, and forget about it as hurting any more, just isn’t worth it. It only hurts if you let it…. Chuck it in the ‘I don’t give a shit basket’That way you can carry on with your life and enjoy it πŸ˜πŸ’™πŸ’”

It’s the little things…

I sit here with the kids eating tea, and I just know I’m so lucky….

I’ve been worrying a lot lately about the everyday things in life, and can honestly say…. Stress really an take over.

So I’ve picked up my colouring book… Its amazing what one hour of just colouring and choosing your colours can do β€οΈπŸ’™πŸ’”

On this day..

On this day 15 years ago I was gojng into labour… I was so scared…

What if the same thing happened again, it was another boy…

They took me towards the same room that 4 years earlier I had given birth in….

I couldnt…. We had a different room, a different story and tomorrow my big boy is 15 years of age and I couldn’t be prouder of the young man he has become πŸ’”πŸ’™πŸ’ͺ

Quiet….

Hi guys, sorry I have been a bit quiet. Not been feeling too well.

Tomorrow will be my last exam for the year….. Although saying that I have missed one due to illness, so may have to do that soon.

Anyway….. I’m proud of what I have achieved this academic year….. I have had moments where I have doubted my abilities, but I aint no quitter….

1 down 2 years to go!! πŸ˜πŸ’”πŸ’™

Hurt

When you’ve felt the pain of loss, and you’ve built yourself back to be the best you can be….

You become less tolerant of negative behaviours and hurtful actions of others and you distance yourself….

This is because your not sure you can cope with anymore hurt or pain..πŸ’™πŸ’”

I will

I will always put you first…

I will hurt for you….

I will bleed for you….

I will hold your hand…

I will fight for you….

I will love you….

I will be right behind you….

I will catch you when you fall…

I will build you right back up….

To my children who make me proud every day πŸ’“πŸ’™πŸ’”

Being mum…

As I sit here waiting for my eldest to come from basketball, my daughter on her phone next to me….

I count my blessings, I have amazing kids, and I am lucky…. I only wish I could tell you about my biggest boy too, as I am a mum to three…. πŸ’™πŸ’”

Remembering you…

I remember how your nain dressed you all in white, you looked so beautiful in your white babygrow and fluffy strawberry blonde hair after your bath. I remember saying you looked like an angel…

Little did I know that shortly after you would grow your wings… You will always be our little angel πŸ’™πŸ’”πŸ˜‡

A good read

Check out @AbbieWightwick’s Tweet: https://twitter.com/AbbieWightwick/status/1125368732350590976?s=09

As I read this article this morning and think of my own experiences… I also believe death should be talked about.

Share your thoughts and wishes if you can… not sharing your thoughts adds pressure on the family during grief, and wrong decisions may be made, things they later regret.

It doesn’t have to be a sit down and let’s talk about death…. What I mean is… You hear the song on the radio, you think that would be nice in my funeral.. Then just say it!

Do you want to be cremated? Burried? Where?

“I would love to have ‘I did it my way!’ in mine πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸ’™πŸ’”