Who is the most confident person you know?

Confidence for me is only a perception. I don’t view it as one size fits all.

People and situations can be so different. In work i am confident as i know what I’m doing and enjoy what i do. Take me out of work and i have no confidence whatsoever. I think this is true for many people, they can appear confident in different situations.

Some seem infused with confidence, but it’s a cover for the breakages inside them.

Those who are lucky enough to have 100%confidence, well I ain’t sure if that’s even possible. If it is, then great, if not well i guess that makes us all pretty normal, whatever that means 🤔🤣

Where can you reduce clutter in your life?

Reducing clutter is a difficult one for me…

I don’t come from much which has made possessions prominent in my mind. Clutter used to make me feel wealthy, warm and accomplished.

Now i realise that clutter is things we don’t necessarily need, but firm attachments to, so i have over the years scaled down considerably.

Clutter of the mind, however, that continues as I am constantly thinking of a million things at once. I have tried brain dumps, speaking out, lists, and so much more, but cluttering the mind gives less space to the trauma that continuously wants to take over.

So, in short, sort of decluttered home, but a very cluttered mind.

Share what you know about the year you were born.

I fod yn honest, wyddwn i ddim am flwyddyn  fy ngeni. Gwn fy mod y trydydd plentyn i Mam a Dad, a doedd fy ddechreuad ddim yn un hawdd, efo gorfod cael transfusion yn syth.

Er hyny dwin falch iawn or flwyddyn hono, falch o fod yma, a mwyaf oll falch o fod wedi cael y dechreuad cefais yn bywyd.

Omg….. Do you know in my head everyone is saying horrible things, but then part of me thinks if they are, then its cause they dont know me.

Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.

One day i hope people will realise im a loner from choice, not snobery nor because its what i like. Its purely  because i cant risk myself on any more people, i have been hurt by the closest, strangers and more and i cant take any more of it. So i keep my circle small to save nobody but my family and i.

I hope one day that people will say, i was a good woman, and if they dont, well i wont be here to hear it so really, who cares.

My family is my everything, as long as they are ok, then i will have done something right.

I love deeply, and if you make the inner circle, then know that you are extremely lucky, but know also that you are a person i trust with my heart ❤️

What could you do less of?

This is something I do constantly…..

Somethings are instilled,  behaviours that have been created from a very young age. 

Why dont you stop then, i hear you say…..

Is it a bad thing?

The day i stop worrying what others think, is the day i dont care…….

I will leave that with you….

I would certainly prefer to be the way i am, than so closed off that i care for nothing….

Are you more of a night or morning person?

I really can not just fall asleep, I admire people who can.

Instead every night I read, colour or watch telly until I can do no more.

That’s the point I put everything away and go to sleep.😴

Name your top three pet peeves.

I had a giggle when I read this prompt…..then I immediately thought gosh how does a menopausal woman decide on just three 😂😂

Here it goes….

1. Insensitive people
2. Rudeness….the simple please and thanks…. Costs nothing
3. People using phones whilst driving…. Life is far too precious for needless accidents, the texts and calls can wait.

What are your favorite animals?

The Elephant has always been my favourite animal, ever since I was small I was intrigued be the sheer magnitude of them.

They stood tall and firm, but appeared quiet and layed back. Their skin tells a story, pretty much like mine.

Though I do refer to my markings being tiger stripes! But what I do know….. just like the elephant I have earned all my battle scars and markings. Each one tells a story.

Beach or mountains? Which do you prefer? Why?

There is something about looking into the distance, not knowing what’s at the end….. Pretty much like life really, it’s probably best we don’t know what’s ahead sometimes. The beach is where i feel at one with nature, the shapes, colours, sounds are all encompassing 🥰

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

I guess the past does pull me a lot as I never want to go forward without you.

But I have learnt also that acceptance of both your loss and the new imperfect me was key to the future.

I strive to be the best I can be, I chose life when times were hard, I’m glad I did. I have achieved and continue to achieve in this thing called life.  I am so proud of all that I am, my family and mostly proud to be a mum to you Owain , a tiny baby angel I never met and Gwion, Beca and Tyler 💔💗

What is life without looking to the future, keep moving forward but not forgetting who we are and where we have been. I wear my tiger stripes with pride 🐯