Confidence for me is only a perception. I don’t view it as one size fits all.
People and situations can be so different. In work i am confident as i know what I’m doing and enjoy what i do. Take me out of work and i have no confidence whatsoever. I think this is true for many people, they can appear confident in different situations.
Some seem infused with confidence, but it’s a cover for the breakages inside them.
Those who are lucky enough to have 100%confidence, well I ain’t sure if that’s even possible. If it is, then great, if not well i guess that makes us all pretty normal, whatever that means 🤔🤣
I don’t come from much which has made possessions prominent in my mind. Clutter used to make me feel wealthy, warm and accomplished.
Now i realise that clutter is things we don’t necessarily need, but firm attachments to, so i have over the years scaled down considerably.
Clutter of the mind, however, that continues as I am constantly thinking of a million things at once. I have tried brain dumps, speaking out, lists, and so much more, but cluttering the mind gives less space to the trauma that continuously wants to take over.
So, in short, sort of decluttered home, but a very cluttered mind.
I fod yn honest, wyddwn i ddim am flwyddyn fy ngeni. Gwn fy mod y trydydd plentyn i Mam a Dad, a doedd fy ddechreuad ddim yn un hawdd, efo gorfod cael transfusion yn syth.
Er hyny dwin falch iawn or flwyddyn hono, falch o fod yma, a mwyaf oll falch o fod wedi cael y dechreuad cefais yn bywyd.
Omg….. Do you know in my head everyone is saying horrible things, but then part of me thinks if they are, then its cause they dont know me.
Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.
One day i hope people will realise im a loner from choice, not snobery nor because its what i like. Its purely because i cant risk myself on any more people, i have been hurt by the closest, strangers and more and i cant take any more of it. So i keep my circle small to save nobody but my family and i.
I hope one day that people will say, i was a good woman, and if they dont, well i wont be here to hear it so really, who cares.
My family is my everything, as long as they are ok, then i will have done something right.
I love deeply, and if you make the inner circle, then know that you are extremely lucky, but know also that you are a person i trust with my heart ❤️
The Elephant has always been my favourite animal, ever since I was small I was intrigued be the sheer magnitude of them.
They stood tall and firm, but appeared quiet and layed back. Their skin tells a story, pretty much like mine.
Though I do refer to my markings being tiger stripes! But what I do know….. just like the elephant I have earned all my battle scars and markings. Each one tells a story.
There is something about looking into the distance, not knowing what’s at the end….. Pretty much like life really, it’s probably best we don’t know what’s ahead sometimes. The beach is where i feel at one with nature, the shapes, colours, sounds are all encompassing 🥰