A mother protecting her child is one of the most passionate, caring, fierce moments you will experience…..

This is why us mums who haven’t been able to protect (through no fault of our own) our child find it so difficult to carry on with life after loss.

It was our job to protect, we failed, we weren’t good enough, we didn’t deserve to have our kids….. This is what we think over and over again.

We did everything we could, turn it around we did protect, we were passionate, caring and fierce and….. Somehow now we are fiercer than ever as somehow we battle to continue with our lives having experienced the worst thing possible….

Stay fierce 💙💔

Sometimes you feel like you just don’t belong…..

But you do…. You do belong… You have earned your stripes hold your head up high…. Look around you….

For what you may see is other people feeling the same unearthly pain your feeling….

You are most definitely not alone 💙💔

I had someone say once,… ‘oh what’s wrong with you now’…. Well that’s because I’m open and honest with my feelings…..

If you don’t share your thoughts or problems, they become bigger as you can’t reason with them…..

I did this and resulted in me doing some very serious things…..

I recovered from self harming…. by sharing my thoughts…. You don’t have to stay in the dark keep going there is light….keep talking….

I wear my scars with pride…. This is me 💙💔

The title today pretty much explains where my head is at…… I know my wobble is due to the fear of my exam results tomorrow….

I don’t know what the expectation is and it’s making me sick with worry… I know I did my best…

But I’m not sure if my best is good enough….

You see after 18 years there are some lasting effects…. Particularly in self belief, but I’m determined… This won’t beat me….

Tomorrow can’t come quick enough 💙💔

Don’t beat yourself up for being self conscious, or lacking confidence or feeling your not good enough….

The old you had many years to build these traits….

The new you is hyper sensitised… Your still learning….. Accepting the new you…. This will take time 💙💔

Words can’t describe how proud I am of my kids…..

Yes we argue, they misbehave just like every other child….

But I wouldn’t change them for the world…

I only ever wanted one child…. after loosing my son I thought that was it… but life chose a different path for me and I was gifted 2 more… And they make me proud every day😁

Don’t allow the dark shadow of loosing a child…. determine your future…. cherish every moment, make memories… for these children are here and they need you 💙💔

It’s true to say this is a battle your going through

Sad vs happy

Anger vs love

Hate vs like

Darkness vs light

Fight this battle for at the end there is sunshine with a very special cloud/star in the sky 💙💔

Don’t forget that your family are going through this with you…

They may not understand whole heartedly what your feeling but they have also lost a loved one…..

They are also feeling helpless in the fact that nothing they do can fix this…

Be together seek peace through the love of one another, cause you can’t do this alone, 💙💔

Today I got my certificates through the post…. So proud of myself… Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be a success after tumbling so low.

Set yourself goals start with the little things…. It could be just to get up and dressed in the mornings… Or pop to the shop for a newspaper….

Then as you begin to rebuild your life make your goals bigger…. If I can you can 💙💔

How do you feel so alone…… Well it’s because your numb… You have forgotten who you are…. You’ve lost yourself….

Just because your heart is broken don’t turn your back on love cause now more than ever you need love.

Take a breath, hold your head up and look around you and you will see so much love around you, embrace it, help love, mend your heart 💙💔