The thing with experiencing grief yourself is that you feel deeper, notice more, try and change things for people, try and help…

I see someone in pain I want to help…i see someone cry… I cry with them.. Someone’s ill… I want to help….

It’s difficult because you sometimes there is nothing you can do to make things better for them…. So the worry takes over….

Im exhausted….. I wouldn’t change who I am or have become but it would be nice to be able to switch off sometimes 💙💔

Attended my uncle’s funeral today… Was nice to see so many people there…

It’s a real shame we don’t get together more often as a family.

One thing today taught me is that people notice kind hearted people…. and it doesn’t go unnoticed. Today showed ne that our uncle was loved by many, may you rest in peace…

Tell your loved ones what they mean to you now/today for tomorrow is not promised 💙💔xx

There is always one distinct thing that reminds you of your loved one….

My little man smiled at tigger… So tigger is our thing…. Its engraved on his headstone and on me …

Tigger always makes me smile…..💙💔

Many people treat the graveside differently….i went through many a phase….

There all hours

There every day

Didn’t want to move house as wanted to be near

Couldn’t go

A place of peace

So if your in the graveyard attending a funeral or just visiting don’t judge the unkempt grave…. They may not be able to face it right now… But rather take a moment and help them out…. Give it a tidy…. Throw the dead flowers and share the love 💙💔

People say gosh you have lots going on… Your like superwoman…… How do you do it……

Truth is I don’t know nor do I want to stop…. I don’t want to slow down… Or put myself first……

I think its a combination of who I once was, combined with battling depression – postnatal and loss….. Having too much time on my mind isn’t good for me as that’s when my mind wonders and longing comes in…

So for now and whilst I can…. I will continue with the being busy… As it keeps my mind healthy and happy. Do what’s right for you, cause only you know what’s right 💙💔

Hi…. Big hugs and kisses….🤗

Hi mam you OK?….💓

Love you mam, see you later….. 💖

Mum tea was nice, thankyou…. 💗

I’ve done my room mum!……… (not so often)🙄😜

Oh mum guess what?….. 🙈

These are the little things…. Breathe them in….. No matter what’s going on… No matter how bad you feel or how useless you think you are….🤯

Stop and absorb them…. You are loved and doing a great job 💙💔

I think I’m being avoided at the moment and people are being a little awkward…. My story was in the press…. Do they congratulate me?

It might not be the right thing to do?

It’s OK to say we’ll done or oh I saw your story…. Because what I’m doing is trying to help others…. Its OK to say even that you don’t like what I’m doing….

Im doing it not for sympathy, but for understanding and to try and help others who may have suffered….

Nobody should feel alone… 💙💔

You just don’t want to face the world, do you…

People don’t know what to say…

You don’t know what to say….

They are staring, judging, whispering…

Yes that’s right they will do all of those, but their staring cause they don’t know what to say… They aren’t judging they probably saying how brave you are, they don’t know what they would do if they were in your shoes…. A child shouldn’t go before their parent…and much more… They may even come up to you and hold you or say the totally wrong thing to try and ease your pain….?

I do that and I have been through it! Don’t be too harsh on them, they mean well💙💔

I know we all grieve differently… I treat the birthday different to the anniversary… I mark it with little gifts and a visit to the cemetery.

I think back to the day he was born, and how loved he was by all, he was perfect.

People have been so kind today and sent me lovely messages…. Thankyou 💙💔

I kept myself busy time with my family then tackled a huge pile of ironing… 💙💓💔

It’s O. G.’s 19th birthday tomorrow…. I can’t believe so much time has passed…

It feels like yesterday I was giving birth..

Kept myself busy today, spent time with my family.

My eldest was singing ‘Sweet Caroline’ to himself earlier…. Brought a tear to my eye…. That was one of my dad’s favourites….

Re-itteration that our lost loved ones live on in us 💙💔