As I sit here waiting for my eldest to come from basketball, my daughter on her phone next to me….

I count my blessings, I have amazing kids, and I am lucky…. I only wish I could tell you about my biggest boy too, as I am a mum to three…. 💙💔

I remember how your nain dressed you all in white, you looked so beautiful in your white babygrow and fluffy strawberry blonde hair after your bath. I remember saying you looked like an angel…

Little did I know that shortly after you would grow your wings… You will always be our little angel 💙💔😇

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As I read this article this morning and think of my own experiences… I also believe death should be talked about.

Share your thoughts and wishes if you can… not sharing your thoughts adds pressure on the family during grief, and wrong decisions may be made, things they later regret.

It doesn’t have to be a sit down and let’s talk about death…. What I mean is… You hear the song on the radio, you think that would be nice in my funeral.. Then just say it!

Do you want to be cremated? Burried? Where?

“I would love to have ‘I did it my way!’ in mine 😁👍💙💔

I feel the judgement, I see the looks….. But reality is nobody knows what the situation is. Those who judge know no better or are just ignorant people.

To be honest in the grand scheme of things does it matter what they think…. NO…. I know this, but I can’t help but feel it.

So I will carry on with my head held up high knowing that I am doing my best…. And my best is good enough 💓💔💙

I have had the most amazing week away with my little family and friends.

As the kids grow older I wonder, will they still want to come in holiday with me? I really hope they will continue, as I love them with all my heart and want to continue to make memories with them for years to come.

They are my world I only wish they had their big brother here too 💓💔💙

Don’t put anything ahead of your family and your own happiness… What seems important in the hussle and bussle of daily life to you, really isn’t.

Go to bed every night knowing that you did your best, had fun, smiled, loved and more than anything else knowing you will have no regrets about yesterday.

Live life to the full…. Cause tomorrow is not promised to nobody 💓💔💙

Well my exam went well, I did my best, that’s all I can do.

That applies to the grieving process too, do your best, do what feels right… There is no right from wrong…. One tiny step at a time, you will learn to live again, you will learn to love again…. Have faith. Have a great day everyone 💓💔💙

Today I finished decorating the bedroom, then met up with mum for her birthday. We went out for a meal to celebrate her birthday. It was nice to spend some time with my brother and his family too.

Appreciate what you have today as tomorrow is not promised to any of us…… 💙💔

I’m still doing it, I’m keeping myself busy…. We have had to make major changes to our household over the last 2 years….We have had to make an extra bedroom, so we all had a room each… So I’m decorating this weekend, it’s the last of the bedrooms…Bedroom 4 is nearing completion… Can’t wait to finish it 😁

As I study for my exams, I almost can’t believe I’m approaching the end of my 1st year…

Grief will not stop me, I’ve learned to accept the new me and build my life up again. I’m determined to be the best I can be.

Having completed my project management last year and now studying towards my degree I will build a future for myself and my family and hopefully show others that there is life after child loss 💙💔