What are your favorite animals?
The Elephant has always been my favourite animal, ever since I was small I was intrigued be the sheer magnitude of them.
They stood tall and firm, but appeared quiet and layed back. Their skin tells a story, pretty much like mine.
Though I do refer to my markings being tiger stripes! But what I do know….. just like the elephant I have earned all my battle scars and markings. Each one tells a story.
Beach or mountains? Which do you prefer? Why?
There is something about looking into the distance, not knowing what’s at the end….. Pretty much like life really, it’s probably best we don’t know what’s ahead sometimes. The beach is where i feel at one with nature, the shapes, colours, sounds are all encompassing 🥰
Tydi bywyd yn peth rhyfadd. Dwin teimlo mod i mewn ras, ond ras i ble?
Dros y blynyddoedd dwi di dysgu be sydd yn fy ngwneud yn hapus, petha reit syml rili. Teulu, adra a gwaith.
Ia gwaith! Pam …glywai chi’n deud. Wel ma gwithio yn rhoi sialens i fi, tynnu fy meddwl, cadw fi yn brysur….sydd union be dwi angen i gadw oddi wrth yr hunllefa sydd yn fy meddwl withia, ond hefyd yn nadu i mi or feddwl.
Hefyd ma gwaith yn rhan ohonai cyn dy golli di. Dwi di bod yn weithgar erioed a doedd dim yn gallu fy stopio. Dwi meddwl bod cael gwithio fel dwi di neud erioed a wan yn ol yn y maes arlwyo yn gadael rhan bach ohonai fod y Delyth dwi di bod erioed
Dwi ddim wedi medru mynd yn ol i’r Delyth oeddwn i cyn dy golli, fydd hyny byth yn bosib, oherwydd y diwrnod yna gollais fy hun hefyd. Ond mae bod yn gwaith, yn ganol pobol, yn gwneud fy ngora yn rhoi teimlad cynnes i mi.
Ond dal tu ol i’r clawr ma na lyfr enfawr sydd heb ei ddarllen ❤️💔
So this week has been a really tough one. Tough because of once again feeling helpless in situations that I can’t resolve and are out of my control.
I was also asked for the first time ever , if I was a Grandma!
It alerted me again to my age and the next chapter of life. It also alerted me to the fact that I have possibly centuries again of worrying about the tragic thing that happened to me happening to one of my children and their babies.
Again some things are just out of your control……..
Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?
I guess the past does pull me a lot as I never want to go forward without you.
But I have learnt also that acceptance of both your loss and the new imperfect me was key to the future.
I strive to be the best I can be, I chose life when times were hard, I’m glad I did. I have achieved and continue to achieve in this thing called life. I am so proud of all that I am, my family and mostly proud to be a mum to you Owain , a tiny baby angel I never met and Gwion, Beca and Tyler 💔💗
What is life without looking to the future, keep moving forward but not forgetting who we are and where we have been. I wear my tiger stripes with pride 🐯
Doeddwn byth yn un am ofyn na dymuno. Doeddwn ddim yn coelio mewn ffashiwn beth. Ond yn y 24 mlynedd diwethaf dwin neud dim byd ond gofyn a dymuno am un peth na chai byth.
Heddiw, dwi di bod i neud dy fedd yn ddel, rhosod neis a ogla hyfryd. Rhoish i gusan i dy gareg.
Fory mi wnai fwynhau y Nadolig, ond fydd yr hen deimlad na yna eto, y teimlad bod wbath at goll.
A mi wnai unwaith eto gofyn a dymuno am chdi.
Nadolig Llawen fy mabi gwyn i💙
#meddwl #galar #gwacter #colled
Mi oeddwn wir yn meddwl fy mod yn sgwennu a neb yn eu darllen.
Wedi digwyddiad diweddar a sgwrs am bwysigrwydd ffindio cymorth yn dy mamiaith, Wel dyma fi yn rhoi tro arni!
Dwi teimlo dwi angen rhoi ‘disclaimer’ cyn dechrau, achos tydi fy nghymraeg i ddim yn berffaith felly maddeuwch i mi.
Heddiw aeth y goeden Nadolig i fyny yn ein ty ni. A unwaith eto roedd gen i hen deimlad hull yn fy stumog yn gwybod mod i yn gwynebu Dolig arall heb Owain Glyn neu O.G. fel oedd ni yn ei alw. 24 mlynedd erbyn rwan a dal mor anodd.
Mae yr angel fach gwydr, y seren fach a Tigger ar y goedon bob blwyddyn i gofio amdano. Ond bob blwyddyn er mod i mor lwcus o cael pawb ogwmpas y bwrdd a teulu i wario amser efo mae’r twll tywyllwch na dal yno dros yr wyl.
Erbyn hyn dwi di derbyn yr hen dwll tywyll na, oherwydd nad oes ffordd i’w wella. Yn hytrach dwi yn ei dderbyn ac yn mynd a fo efo fi ar siwrne bywyd!
When you have felt pain like no other been faced with loosing your child and no idea how to continue living. Fight through it every day and become the best version of you, you can be.
Then you continue on the journey and become good hearted cause you can’t stand to see anyone hurting. Because let’s face it there’s enough hate and harshness in the world. And you know what it’s like to be hurting and alone.
But what’s not OK is when people take advantage of your good heartedness and feel it appropriate to use you for their own success or even use you for what they can get out of you.
Bywyd, wedi colli plentyn/Life after losing a child 