That night again that is still so difficult. 25 years on and i still sit and feel empty about the missing sack, the empty space and all the things your missing out on.
It wasnt meant to be this way at all……..
Its ok to grieve at Christmas, i know i am so fortunate to have my little family, but i also know that there is a void in my heart since the day we said goodbye.
Sleep tight my angel, 😇
Share what you know about the year you were born.
I fod yn honest, wyddwn i ddim am flwyddyn fy ngeni. Gwn fy mod y trydydd plentyn i Mam a Dad, a doedd fy ddechreuad ddim yn un hawdd, efo gorfod cael transfusion yn syth.
Er hyny dwin falch iawn or flwyddyn hono, falch o fod yma, a mwyaf oll falch o fod wedi cael y dechreuad cefais yn bywyd.
Omg….. Do you know in my head everyone is saying horrible things, but then part of me thinks if they are, then its cause they dont know me.
Tell us one thing you hope people say about you.
One day i hope people will realise im a loner from choice, not snobery nor because its what i like. Its purely because i cant risk myself on any more people, i have been hurt by the closest, strangers and more and i cant take any more of it. So i keep my circle small to save nobody but my family and i.
I hope one day that people will say, i was a good woman, and if they dont, well i wont be here to hear it so really, who cares.
My family is my everything, as long as they are ok, then i will have done something right.
I love deeply, and if you make the inner circle, then know that you are extremely lucky, but know also that you are a person i trust with my heart ❤️
What could you do less of?
This is something I do constantly…..
Somethings are instilled, behaviours that have been created from a very young age.
Why dont you stop then, i hear you say…..
Is it a bad thing?
The day i stop worrying what others think, is the day i dont care…….
I will leave that with you….
I would certainly prefer to be the way i am, than so closed off that i care for nothing….
Are you more of a night or morning person?
I really can not just fall asleep, I admire people who can.
Instead every night I read, colour or watch telly until I can do no more.
That’s the point I put everything away and go to sleep.😴
Yn ddiweddar mi es i, i le tywyll iawn, doedd dim penodol, ond bob dim di dod yn ormod.
Sylwais reit sydyn bod angen help arnai. On be oedd yr help oni isho, dwim yn siwr.
Buan iawn sylwais er mod i angen help, doedd gen i ddim yr amser i rhoid i neb oedd yn trio fy helpua!
Teimlais fwy o bwysa yn sydyn ofnadwy, roedd pawb isho tamaid ohonaf fel petau.
Yna cofiais y pwysigrwydd o dderbyn, derbyn sefyllfa, argaeledd, yr cymorth oedd ar gael a mwy.
Cofiais hefyd nid oedd rhaid i fi wneud bob dim ar unwaith. Felly eisteddais yn ol gwneud rhestr o bob dim oedd yn cael ei gynnig.
Derbyniais nad oedd posib i bob dim ddigwydd ar unwaith, es ati i feddwl be oedd yn bosib efo’r amser oedd genai.
A dyma ddechrau ar siwrne arall i ddod yn well unwaith eto.
Diolch i bawb sydd yn fy nghefnogi🥰
Name your top three pet peeves.
I had a giggle when I read this prompt…..then I immediately thought gosh how does a menopausal woman decide on just three 😂😂
Here it goes….
What are your favorite animals?
The Elephant has always been my favourite animal, ever since I was small I was intrigued be the sheer magnitude of them.
They stood tall and firm, but appeared quiet and layed back. Their skin tells a story, pretty much like mine.
Though I do refer to my markings being tiger stripes! But what I do know….. just like the elephant I have earned all my battle scars and markings. Each one tells a story.
Beach or mountains? Which do you prefer? Why?
There is something about looking into the distance, not knowing what’s at the end….. Pretty much like life really, it’s probably best we don’t know what’s ahead sometimes. The beach is where i feel at one with nature, the shapes, colours, sounds are all encompassing 🥰
Bywyd, wedi colli plentyn/Life after losing a child 