As I study for my exams, I almost can’t believe I’m approaching the end of my 1st year…

Grief will not stop me, I’ve learned to accept the new me and build my life up again. I’m determined to be the best I can be.

Having completed my project management last year and now studying towards my degree I will build a future for myself and my family and hopefully show others that there is life after child loss 💙💔

Today I spent some quality time with my teenagers…. As they are getting older they come with so many additional worries and learning curves.

I wouldn’t change them for the world, but sometimes we forget that they need me as much as I need them.

So we had fun and laughed and spent a few precious hours just the three of us… Lovely 💙💔

You will face obstacles… You will have struggles… You will battle a mind that thinks the worst… These are the effects of loosing your child.

The obstacles will make you climb.. The struggles will make you stronger and thinking the worst makes you appreciate what you have.

Enjoy and cherish each day… You are battling and each day is evidence of your strength.

Keep fighting one day at a time 💓💙💔

That’s a very difficult day completed…. I did what I always do which is to keep myself busy…

I wasn’t well today but needed to do something, so painted a little in the garden, then, made a turkey roast dinner for my little family.

It’s hard to believe that so much time has passed…. 19 years….each memory painful but treasured.

Tonight when everyone was home I went and sat by his grave, and spoke to him for a little while. I put the world to rights and took in the sounds and views around him. Such a peaceful, pretty, resting place 💓💙💔

Today marks the 19th anniversary of when I woke to find my boy had sadly past away…

The worst day of my life….

I lost my boy and myself and life hasn’t been the same since.

But over time accepting the new me…i have built my life, I have a family that i am so proud of, and good friends. I am successful and determined. Never give up take everything a day at a time 💙💔

That occasion when you feel you have forgotten someone…

You haven’t, you just feel like you should be buying another egg for a special person.

How I deal with this is to buy flowers.. This then makes my deliveries for easter feel complete. 💙💔

Had a bit of a blip this evening…. Well that’s what I call them…

I went for a drive cleared my head cried a lot and then came home and straight back to doing what I do best being mum.

Right let’s enjoy the rest of the weekend 😁💙💔

This time of year is difficult for me as 10 March till 22 April was the 6 weeks where my baby boy was alive….

These 6 weeks every year, is like having a cloud above you and something pressing on your heart…

I relive everything….

But all this aside…. I’m one lucky lady with a lovely family, and looking forward to a lovely weekend with family and friends 💙💔

Tomorrow marks a big change in my life….

It doesn’t scare me nor does it make me feel sad…. Its just another fresh start.

It’s good to push yourself out of your comfort zone sometimes. It wakes up many emotions, and pushes you to think differently and develop further.

Here’s to the future 💙💔

We don’t chose our life yes we make decisions along the way… But we deal with the life we are given.

Im not sure given the chance I would change anything, obviously one thing (losing my boy).

But all my experiences have made me who I am, and has given me what I have…

In reality I’m one lucky lady, I have a family who are there for me and we have love and laughter don’t underestimate the power of love 💙💔